my journey to being skinny...

11:59 pm

 heyy
im gong shopping tomorrow with a mate
and she is so skinny
and im just

FAT
ughh and every1 will look at me like omg how fat is she
im so depressed today
dont no what to do
i have to get to 139 by 5 november do you guys think thats possible?
does any1 know good excersizes to tone up the thighs?
MuchLove xXx

11:31 pm

well where do i start
today has been shit
ive eaten 600 cals but then did burn over 400 cals so i guess not to bad today!
i would actually do anything for him
and want to be with him for the rest of my life
and i will be thin so he will love me even more because i will be thin
which sounds so great i need to be at 130 pounds by christmas
i can do it it is my goal!!!
anyway weigh in tomorrow morning hopefully have lost weight
going to go to bed now
MuchLove xXx

05:37 pm

  amazing thinspo i love it look at her hip bones xXx
best thinspo at the moment xXx

05:00 pm

 OMG  i cant stop eating it is so enoying
what is wrong with me?
i actually want to kill myself today
this boy kissed me and i didnt stop it, so i cheated on my boyfriend
and feel so so so guilty
then i told my boyfriend and he said well i love you even more now for being honest with me
i mean how good of a boyfriend is he?
i cant beleive he forgave me i love him soo much!!!!
i realise how much he loves me now and will never do anything to hurt him again.
uhh im gona kill that boy what a dickhead i told him i had a boyfriend aswell!
and today i had like 3 biscuits coz i was depressed at 100 cals each and dinner so i feel like a fat pig and hate myself.
has anyone else had a bad day??
MuchLove xXx

Current Mood: angry

11:52 pm

 
yes now at size 8-10 was size 12 woohoo
feeling better now was really moody this mrning coz i am on my period
and felt so fat and desgusting eugghh
but im going to do this 
tomorrow no more than 100 cals
i can do it got to stay strong
got to get to 125 pounds soon before december
YES i will do it
and then by my 16th birthday in march im going to be 110
yayayayayay
MuchLove xXx

Current Mood: bouncy

07:21 pm

11:33 pm

OMG  today i am feeling really good.
i feel thinner and only had 30 cals 2day woohoo
yay
also i am in LOVE omg i love him so much im talking to him now he is so gorgoues and lovely and nice and i cant wait till i can be with him i miss him so much when im not with him i even cry sometimes if im feeling emotional
ahhh
am i mad?? seriously??
why do i cry like all the time its a nightmare
hes telling me he loves me so much
i would do anthing for him, the trouble is im always so emotional and he has to cheer me up all the time. And he lies and tells me i am beautiful and have a gorgoues body. he is obviously lieing but it does make me feel good even if i dont beleive it!!!
MuchLove xXx

Current Mood: flirty

09:49 pm

Well where do i start
i had a car crash that hurt my back bad so couldnt do any excercise for months so put on loads of weight so now im back and going to be thin again
i hate my life at the moment my boyfriend i think is cheating and i dont know what to do i mean i love him soo much
my mum i think hates me at the moment she is always shouting at me i can never do anything right.
Karet used to be my whole life but now i like seriously hate it but have to do it coz i feel to gulity to quit becaus ei know my instructor well so dotn know what to do
and i feel so so so FAT im liek crying soooooo much
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
MuchLove xXx 

Current Mood: lonely